entries from 2010

• August 

I am not the same as I was yesterday.
A continual change, a constant transformation is happening to me.
I am rejecting and casting off labels that once held me in place.
More aware of where I have been and where I am going.
Looking back and reflecting on the work that has and is unfolding, like a dream.

I am not who I once thought I was.
I am not who many think I am.
But I am who "you" say I am.

I have forever been changed by you and your great love for me.
A love so captivating and revealing,
A love so strong,
Its cut through all the layers of the things that have wounded me.
Now bare and exposed, no other way I would rather it be.

Your relentless pursuit,
Whether quiet whispers in the dark
Or blatant signs of your affection for all to see,
I cannot ignore.
This love runs so deep.
I may not know the sound of your voice but the way you say my name,
Brings me to my knees.
Your presence is undeniable and your ways,
Unmistakable
And your touch heals all of me.

Talk to me, talk to me.
Remind me of who I am.
Talk to me, talk to me.
I place my heart in your hands.
Talk to me, talk to me.
Free me once again.

• March

In the present, in the midst of this pain
Oh, how easy it is to forget
to give You the highest of praise.

This overwhelming sense of sinking
or drifting to far from shore

Dare I cry out "Oh, I praise You Lord"

The irony of this action
sometimes, out weighs my despair.

And the further I drift, so it seems,
from your sight and your care.

How can I praise you, when there is so much
distance between us and it's I that put it there.

Still I know a mere cry for help
is no longer sufficient here.

These are all too familiar waters,
I have been here before.

But you have taught me, in times past, how to
navigate away from the depths, back to the shore .

And for that, I should, praise you Lord.

Yet I wonder if I raise this sail, can I trust you
to supply the wind to fill it and carry me ashore.

In an instant, with a gentle breeze you answer.

With that same quickness I am undone and in surrender
I cry "Oh, How I praise You Lord!"